so the 'i love you' wasn't real, he's worried he can't settle down south if he's seeing me, he thinks he wants a fresh start, he's been thinking this since before he moved down, he didn't want to tell me because i am always so happy that he didn't want to upset me.

on the other hand he'd like to be proved wrong and see what happens, without my knowledge he's asked his friends who are getting married in italy in july if i can come as his plus one, i am the only one who can put up with him, i am invited to meet his parents at an event in three weeks' time, he wants to see if it can work out.

he was crying again. i know what you're going to say because i'm saying it myself "the boy is confused he doesn't know what he wants, walk away, if he can say these things to you he doesn't want to be with you". please don't tell me this because i don't want to hear it right now but in the spirit of keeping this blog real and truthful i had to give you an update.