I want to know why I let him be so rude to me.

And why I don't have the strength to tell him I won't stand for it. (Maybe because I am standing for it?)

I am wondering at what point I get my dignity back.

If there is any way to rescue this.

Why he is so stubborn.

And why he always ignores the so-called awkward questions.

Why when last night he said he did want me after all, today he acted so indifferently.

Why it felt strange when I bumped into him on the way to work this morning, when last night he said I had got him 100%.

Why I wear my heart on my sleeve.

And why, when someone gets under my skin, I let it affect me so much.