I know I haven't been on here a while but given recent developments (and the fact I'm stuck at my desk on December 30 with no work to do), I thought I'd give you an update.

I don't really know where to begin so I guess I'll jump right in: M. You might remember him. Fell for him in a hard way in 2007, there were a few twists and turns (to say the least), but it ended with a painful split that October followed by a year of silence as his new girlfriend commanded him not to be in any sort of contact with me.

What I didn't know however, in that period, was how often he thought of me, how he wanted to get in contact on the times he came down to London, how he'd felt guilty for how he'd treated me. How do I know this?

Because one day in September, I got an email. He'd just come back from some time abroad, was no longer with the girlfriend, and had 'had chance to do a bit of thinking' while he was away. He said how he had treated me had played on his mind, knew he was 'totally out of order', and offered his apologies.

I was so shocked to receive that email. Shocked, surprised, happy. And all those old feelings came back. They had never really gone away, to be fair. Since then? I've seen him for a coffee, which turned into an overnight stay (and before you ask, nothing happened!). We've stayed up late talking on numerous occasions and I can honestly say I have never felt so open with anyone before. He says the feeling's mutual; he's definitely answered all my questions, the many whys and the whens, with frankness.

You might remember how torturous last New Year's Eve was for me, when the hurt I'd suffered over the year (and, admittedly, the drink) added up to a night of tears which started at 12.01 and I thought would never stop. My heart felt truly broken and I thought I'd never escape from such a low place.

Fast forward a year, exactly. Guess what? He is coming to London to spend New Year's Eve with me. His idea. We'll go to Big Ben and watch the fireworks. My idea. But the biggest surprise of all? He says he wants to give us another try. He says our problems last time were his fault because he was 'useless' and all over the place, but this time he wants to make it, us, work. He says if I'm not sure then there's no need to rush things, that we can take all the time I need. He just wants me to agree to giving us a try.

I want to believe him. A bit of me feels cautious but I know as soon as I see him that feeling will melt away. He's everything I want in a guy yet our past makes me think I ought to be sensible. But should I? On the most magical night of them all, would it be too hard to believe that just a little bit of the magic could come my way? On the last day of the year, isn't it finally time for my happy ending?